A Change of Heart

(an elongated sigh)

Why? Why has this happened to me? The heart and soul is so intricate! My, how quick God can work on the heart when you're not looking!

To explain, if you know anything about me, you know I have up to now been absorbed and totally taken over by historic periods. So much so that perhaps part of me has loathed the idea of modern life and wished I could return to yesteryear and forget 2015 exists. I've had a distinctive change of heart. Not drastic. But distinctive. I'm so glad I live in 2015. It's slightly hard to explain. But in general, I think God's got big things in store for me. And changing my likes and point of view is preparing me to step into his call on my life.

In my writing, I swore a few years ago to only write historically-set stories. Yet my current work-in-progress is modern-set and is on my heart so very strong. I felt like a hypocrite at first. Like I was being someone whom I was not. After all, God has called me in part to preserve history. Why in the heck am I writing a modern day story?!? Then it hit me, "Why wouldn't I?" Perhaps my goal can be accomplished both ways. Perhaps it must be accomplished both ways.

In life in general, I could not be more grateful that I was born in the 20th century. (I know...You are probably thinking, "Duh.") As hard as it is for me to admit this, I must. For it is only when I admit my contentedness and gratefulness that God can launch me into the awesomeness that is his call on my life.

History and time gone by is still important to me. This will never change. But perhaps I must accept modern life to embrace the future ahead. Slowly but surely, I am finding who I am in Christ. It is not average or ordinary. But my life story will be written and set in the 21st century. I should embrace this and not fight it. After all, wouldn't it be a bit weird if a character in a story was constantly acting as if they were in 21st century USA when the story is set in Regency England??

When I was born, figuratively God picked up the pen and set it upon an empty book filled with fresh, blank pages. At the top he wrote my name and date of birth and set forth penning my journey of life. And although the road ahead is yet to be seen, one thing I am certain of....The setting has and will always be in the 21st century. I must submit my ways and embrace the life before me. It is incredible. Why should I ever deny myself the joys that the Lord has set before me? I can't, and I won't. For the future is very bright! I shall hold to the values of the past while embracing the future before me.

The Days of Yesteryear

Some days I feel I should shout aloud from the distress lest I not dispose from myself the imposing modern culture I have as of yet found myself within. To be whisked away to another century in one second's time would be more than enough salve to relieve my soul. I know. This will never happen. But after all, isn't this what imaginations were truly made for? To think that in one's mind as they close their eyes they can almost see themselves in another time for a brief moment. I treasure these moments every day. To be without them would surely be my undoing. Yet I think God had me born when I was to perhaps see to it that I'd be able to treasure yesteryear in its fullest capacity. For there are so many lives, so many time periods, so many ways of dressing, and so many choices of place that I would have had much trouble choosing just one if I had been given the choice! So with a gentle sigh, I thank the Lord for the chance to treasure all times since the beginning both in my heart, in my mind and imagination, and in the pen that is put to paper. May we never forget the days of yesteryear! Never let modern culture dictate how who should live. What you should like. For me, I love history and being transported into another time by way of books, series, and such. It is glorious! And no modern opinions could make me ever change my mind concerning this very thing. Yet I know in my heart that the Lord has a grand purpose for me in the here and now that I will embrace fully.